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email me on tour!! [24 May 2006|08:36pm]
so im home for a day for graduation and then im officially leaving for the summer on friday!!

you can email me, caro, jade, roey, or marissa on tour at this email adress:


just put our name in the subject box!

love you all!!
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[16 May 2006|09:32pm]
[ mood | excited ]


WV Wesleyan College
Attn: The Cadets
59 College Ave.
Buckhannon, WV 26201

**THAT'S ONLY FOR 5/20/06 TO 6/9/06, AFTER THAT GOES TO:**
The Cadets
601 W. Hamilton St.
Allentown, PA 18101

Just remember put MY name in the bottom left-hand corner of anything you send!!)

Phone calls are nice too =)



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tomorrows horoscope [02 May 2006|10:10am]
[ mood | sore ]

in a way, this gives me an excuse to relax today and get started preparing myself for the summer tomorrow!!!

A move -- physical or mental -- puts you in just the right spot for a stellar opportunity. All you have to do is be open to it and be willing to entertain a few risks along the way. Will it be worth it in the end? Absolutely!

love it...

anyways... i had probably the hardest weekend of my life this past one @ Cadets... got really frustrated on Friday night because i wasnt catching on to the dance fast enough... bad idea having bullshit face on though bcuz it gave off a bad impression on the first night... but the rest of the weekend was good... maxed out the flag work on saturday, and slowly caught on to the sabre work... but by the time the 5 1/2 hour block was over my brain (along with everyone else's) was FRIED! lets just say i dont even remember falling asleep that night...

but overall it was a good weekend... met new people from pride, fantasia, corona, etc... got to hear the corps play the show music (FUCKING INCREDIBLE) and mark sylvester explained the show to us... omg i cant wait to perform it... spring training is gonna be a bitch though... all i know is what they say is true... no matter how sore, tired, or frustrated you are, everyone around you is feeling the same way... and when you wake up the next morning everything makes much more sense...


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Which dress should i wear for banquet? [02 Apr 2006|10:17pm]


your opinion is valued highly <3
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crazy [24 Mar 2006|05:59pm]
[ mood | excited ]

My next two or so months in a nutshell...

this weekend: Olympic Heights Show
next weekend: SFWGA Championships
April 3rd: Farewell performance (8pm FHS Gym!!)
April 4th: Leave for WGI
April 9th: My scholastic WG years are officially over
April 11th: Leaving for Hawaii
April 22nd: Stonemans prom w/ Alyssa possibly
April 29th: Cadets Camp!!
May 4th: AP English Lit Exam
May 5th: PROM!!
May 11th (i think):Last day of school
May 17th: Recital
May 19th: Band Banquet and LAST DAY IN TOWN!!
May 20th: MOVE-IN!
May 25th: Graduation
August 13th: Coming Home from Cadets
August 24th: College Orientation

AND FINALLY at the end of August... my life begins...


mini golf tonight!! 10$ @ CB Smith... help the World Guard raise money!

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weeee [08 Mar 2006|04:27pm]
its been forever...

im gonna be 18 in 8 days...


going to practice now...

k bye
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[08 Dec 2005|11:11pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

its 11:11!!! MAKE A WISH!!!

in about 24 hours from now, ill be enjoying my first night on a gym floor...

i cant wait!!!

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crash [07 Dec 2005|09:54pm]
[ mood | excited ]

moving at the speed of life, we're all bound to collide with eachother...

Flanagan World Guard 2006

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ahhhhhhh [26 Nov 2005|03:46pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]


fuck this game

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RIP Etty Zalkin [13 Nov 2005|01:41am]
[ mood | sad ]

So i had a pretty good day... it was definetly a good spinning day, as i got my release back again, and now im spanking everything! wee...

Santaluces competiton came and went really quickly, and i cant believe theres only one week of marching season left... i hope winter doesnt go by so quickly! i had a really good run, my rifle quad was a little sloppy but other wise it went well... sabre was incredible, thank god (p.s. jade: i forgot to tell you i use your world guard sabre for the 4th song, its good luck hehe), and the wind made flag a little difficult, but i pushed through it, as did the rest of the guard. Major props to the flagline, i hear nothing but good things about you guys!

I walked into my house and went to my moms bedroom to say goodnight, and she told me to give her a hug, so i did... and she told me my grammins (my mom's mom) had passed away yesterday... they think she commited suicide too... That hit me hard... she was supposed to come down for thanksgiving, and i was really looking forward to that... and she was going to come to the Tampa Power Regional for guard, and i was looking forward to that too... so im pretty shaken up... its kind of scary, because last year right before the Santaluces competition, my grandmommy (my dad's mom) had passed away... and i remember performing and getting a feeling in the middle of the show that she was watching me... i even said to myself "this ones for you grandmommy"... it kills me to think that one day ill be sitting my child down telling them that... i cant even think about that day without getting teary... my mom means more to me that ANYTHING... and i dont know what ill do without her...

Ethel "Etty" Zalkin
I love you grammins...


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EDIT!! [03 Nov 2005|12:39pm]
this is just a simple edit to my last entry bcuz i put the days wrong... emily and i went to see the fog halloween night... i couldnt do anything the first bcuz i didnt clean (and i still havent)... and i went to see Saw II with dani, michi, and tom last night!!!

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WILMA SUCKS MY... [02 Nov 2005|05:30pm]
[ mood | bored ]

yay for being home!! i got home at like 7 on monday night, got dressed in my costume, and went to pick up emily... we went to jamba juice (of course) and then to lisa's halloween party... that was alotta fun, and we ended up meeting some pretty cool new people...

yesterday night we hung out with 2 of those new people, eric and mike... we saw the Fog (not as scary as i thought... i was only scared in like one part) and eric kept hitting on emily, it was funny.. but she's completely dedicated to shawn so i dont doubt her for a minute..

today i woke up at like noon, missed my dermatologist appt. at 4... and have been sitting on the couch all day doing NOTHING... i actually went outside to spin for a good hour, and my daddy brought me back my sabre!! i was so freakin happy cuz now i can spin something other than my nasty bobo sabre!

so now im sitting here doing absolutely nothing... i cant call emily to see when she's done babysitting bcuz her phone is in my car... i cant call dani to see if he wants to do something bcuz he doesnt HAVE a phone anymore... im bored as hell...

call me if you wanna hang out..


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ummm. yea [30 Oct 2005|04:44pm]
[ mood | blah ]

im in NY right now w/ my mom and little bro, we're visiting my older brother... he calls us his refugee's from the hurricane...

speaking of hurricanes, I HATE WILMA... she got a whole week of school cancelled, 3 competitions (including FBA and BOA Atlanta!!!), and basically that means that the rest of marching season is FUCKED, to put it plainly... we dont even have our show done, and theres only 2 competitions left... fuck this, i hate hurricanes... can we just start winter season already?

i went apple picking yesterday, super fun... i ate about 7 while i was picking them, lets just say that didnt come out very pretty lol...

i miss florida, i must say, though the cold weather is actually kinda nice for a change, the colors of the trees changing is GORGEOUS and i LOVE that you can see a TRILLIONBAZILLIONMILLIONGADRILLION stars at night...

last night at my brothers house after my mom made dinner and i made apple pie from the fresh apples we had just picked, we made a bonfire in his back yard, one of justins navy buddies played the guitar and we sung any of the few words we knew (he played blink 182, hotel california, green day, etc)... my mom let me take a tequila shot with my brother and his friends (haha, that was interesting) and then we watched them box eachother in the garage... one kid got a black eye and bloody nose, and i gave justin a bloody lip...

tonight they're having a halloween costume party at Ryan's house (another navy boy) for which mom justin and i went costume shopping for... i ended up with this devil fairy costume that looks terrible on me... oh well.. its only one night and i can just put a sweater over it lol..

ok well im going back to the hotel with my mom to take a nap and get dressed...

i miss u all...

i <3 u..


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sooo... its been a while [20 Sep 2005|02:02pm]
[ mood | bored ]

yep its been a while since i updated... havent had much time to write...

first lemme start by saying... hurricane days suck... i hate you rita...

rehearse-a-thon was this saturday... we got so much done and it was actually a really fun day... the guard barely complained considering we were outside on the feild/courts/courtyard the whole day (minus 45 mins in the mini gym after dinner)... i got really burnt but it has since turned into a tan so that's exciting!

sunday i worked from 9 to 12... got my paycheck ($209.86... WEEE!!!)... then came home and cleaned for a while and went to the bouza's for jeni's surprise party... i got there 3 mintues AFTER she did so i missed the surprise but its all good... it was odd being at the bouzas without jade there... but yea. it was fun making totem poles w/ christian and ryan... pinata's with gift certificates and jewelry was a plus...

yesterday was school... i brought matt a mocha latte from starbucks bcuz his bday was sunday so that was his present... it felt nice to stretch and i did 10 sets of abs!!! oh boy those hurt but i can feel myself getting stronger so thats all that matters... my dancing skills are improving too!!

so after 2nd hour i found out there was gonna be no school today so emily and i decided that it was pointless to go to 4th hour... so we didnt go... monica came in and i let her borrow my sabre bcuz she had to practice for braddock...

after school i went to mcdonalds and muvico with dani (mary ann and baker met us there) and we saw "just like heaven"... it was a cheesy cute movie... im sure i wouldve liked it more if my mom didnt call me in the middle saying i had to go pick up my asshole little brother bcuz he missed the bus... so i sped over to walter c. and dropped him off at the front of my community (didnt even take him all of the way home cuz i was pissed off) and went back to muvico...

last night we went to michi's house for a "hurricane social" lol... not a party... social... played in the pool for a while and then i took dani back to his house bcuz it was his brother's bday and he had to be there for dinner and pinata... his brother was turning 18 and he had a pinata, balloons, party favors, and spongebob decorations... lol...

back at michi's me dani ashlie kim caroline and ryan watched dane cook for a little while and wrestled around her room... it was so much fun... me and ryan vs. everyone... lol... we tried making a "fortress" to keep them out... but the laundry basket didnt exactly hold up lol..

so thats basically it... my brother comes into town on thursday!!! im so excited!!! i havent seen him in months and he's bringing his girlfriend (for whom he bought a RING... he wants to propose!!!! weeeee) my moms gonna be out of town this weekend too so me and him are gonna party hardy!! lol...

call me if anyones doing anything fun tonight!!

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vote for me!! [19 Sep 2005|10:55pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]


it would make my whole highschool career worth it if i was even just nominated... i dont have to win... i just wanna be nominated...

if you dont vote for me then vote for Emily...

if you dont vote for either of us vote for Rebecca!!!


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yayyy [10 Sep 2005|01:29am]
[ mood | amused ]

sooo... these were the highlighs of my football game tonight:

-awesome warmup, i was nailing everything
-the guard looked incredible in our uniforms... too bad we were sweating like wolly mammoths... (do they even sweat?)
-had a good show, but knocked my mask of after throwing the first rifle quad... i heard someone in the audience scream "the villain is revealed!! i saw her secret identity" lmao... but i cleverly put it back in place right before another toss, to bad i put it too low and i couldnt see a thing... threw my toss anyway... and caught it somehow...

but this was the best part of my night... after the show i was next to to the bleachers w/ baker, emily, schletter, and a few other people:
Schletter: go over there, i dont like you
Me: Awww... you love us all... ::wipes sweat on his shirt::
Schletter: ::fakes like he's gonna hit me::
Schletter: ::pulls out a pen:: THEY DIDNT SAY ANYTHING ABOUT STABBING THEM! ::chases me up the stairs and into the stands with a pen::

i love it...
i love our show...
i wish it was winterguard...
i forgot to give mr. broadbent a starburst so he was mad at me...

The End.

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weeee [04 Sep 2005|11:15pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

at lisas again.. second night in a row wasting away in her pool/hot tub... i love these people tho so its all worth it to me...

im learning more and more about alot of people... last night it was dillon... tonight it was ryan... i love them both so much and im happy im getting to kno them...

played 10 fingers and lost...

now im being lazy listening to hooty and the blowfish while fausto, diego, marcus, and chris went to get a movie to watch... i hope they dont get a scary one... i hate scary movies...

i love emily... she called me really upset yesterday bcuz of a fight she got into w/ shawn... i dropped everything i was doing to go see her at her house... i went up to her apartment and the door was open so i just went in, climbed into bed with her, calmed her down since she was still crying... and made her laugh... i felt like such a good friend...

all of us were talking about who we like in the hot tub tonight... i didnt even say who i liked, but ryan knew... i guess it was more obvious then i was trying to make it... i told him i didnt want anyone to know bcuz i didnt think i had a chance, and he said thats cool... but they all seem to think that i could have a chance... i dunno... im scared of getting hurt again...

so now its 11 20 and im very relaxed... i wish every day could be this easy...

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PICTURES UP THE REAR!! [04 Sep 2005|10:47am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

instead of sitting here and posting a bazillion pictures (well its like 80 something actually) i decided to just put up the link to my webshots page... you can look at them all there!!


there's pics from michelle's house and the first football game!



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too tired [31 Aug 2005|10:04pm]
[ mood | tired ]

im too tired to update now... ive got lotsa pictures from the first football game and michelles house... like 80 something... ill update later tho!!

monday-football game
friday-football game
saturday-A DAY OFF FINALLY!!!!

thats my schedule this week!!

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whatever [27 Aug 2005|03:50pm]
[ mood | blank ]

fuck it all..

im sick of the bullshit

im sick of being stuck in the middle

i wish i could just leave and never worry about it

why do i have to care so much

why do i just sit here and let everyone pretend like everythings ok

im good at hiding my pain

my mom just left, wont tell me where she's going or when she'll be back...

i dont need to be crying over my little brothers bullshit or what's gonna happne to him anymore... i dont care... for all i care they can take him away for good, baker act him, and put him in a crazy house... and it wont even bother me a bit... he deserves it

if it wasnt for my friends, id be fucked...

thanks guys...

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